Hello,
Though a long time lurker this is my first time here.
I have over the years read and learned from all of you so thanks.
I have had a bit over a week on my own at home as kids are gone for a bit and wife is out travelling. As 110% in the closet and under the box in the very lower right corner but also working from home I used this week to the best. One week with male clothing for just 40-45min.
I started with gluing the forms as the feeling of them moving around but as part of you is wonderful.
Next was to tuck. I have it quite easy to keep them in the inguinal canal but added some tape to keep it all stuffed away. Using sports tape with some elasticity. Two thin stripes slightly crossed over the shaft but behind the top.. Not to tight, just enough to keep in under.
After this was to pierce my ears. Yes, it should be done professionally but I'm not in that seat. A disinfected needle and soon two studs in one ear and one in the other. That feeling. Add some bracelets and necklace.
Dressed up fairly simple with a nice blouse, pair of slacks and a knee long cardigan. All my own clothing.
Step after this was to paint nails, both hands and toes. It's an amazing feeling to see them sticking out under the slacks and in a pair of sandals.
First time ever I made my make up. It was fun!
The peace that comes over you after this is something.
Then into the office. Luckily I only had one online meeting during this time hence 45min of male clothing.
In the evening was this calm when still dressed and see your nails preparing the dinner. Fantastic.
Was a bit hard to sleep with boobs as I tend to sleep on the stomach, but it worked.
Second day was to dress up in skirt and pantyhose.
As I have fast healing skin, I tested to remove the studs and replace with hoops. No problem and no real redness. I know it's to early but as 110% in the closet I need to live some.
Week continued with different clothing and with my make up being if not OK, so at least not on the level of halloween.
It's amazing how one can used to boobs, constantly tucked, make up, nail polish and earrings.
The last evening I sat and went through the week. Which of course went to fast. Has been nothing sexual over it. Just a peace and balance feeling real good. It comes to the point where one starts to think "I would like to stay like this and develop it".
I have been crossdressing for a long time but this was the first time questioning myself if I might be mtf.
Anyhow. Now it's soon to start taking everything off. Clean off nail polish etc. I removed my earrings two days ago and the "holes" are completely closed and I know that as per tomorrow there wont be any visible signs of what has been.
Transitioning is not an option. I love and adore my wife. Kids nowadays are more open minded but it would not be right to them.
Not being able to do this change does not make me depressed but it does ask you "imagine, when you were in your upper teens.......".
friendly regards to all of you
