I was sitting on the bus recently, where I do my best thinking, and I realized that I'm what I've know coined as an inner crossdresser.
I like professional wrestling, and hockey, I am a martial artist and until recently a boxer. As a kid I didn't do gymnastic, ballet etc. Instead I did taekwon-do, and was a skilled baseball player. I am better at video games than my male counterparts, I'm a comics geek, and I'm the only female worker at a comic book shop. To name a few.
Am I really like this on the inside, or did I decide when I was 11 that I was going to become so male on the inside that no one would question my outward appearance? Because when you look at my list, I am very stereotypicaly male.
So am I overcompensatingly male even now that I've established that I am both female and male. And if I am, am I betraying myself? Does anyone else feel like this?
Roughly put I know, but I'm having trouble trying to make sense of myself.