For most of my life I tried so hard to be a man, to be one of the guys, and I always failed miserably. I wanted to fit in so bad, to join the pack, but nothing worked. I tried my hand at sports and was a total flop. I got into weight lifting real heavy for awhile, and though I did bulk up quite a bit, I still felt like an outsider in the gym.
At parties and social gatherings I'd hover with the boys, always unable to get into the conversation. I always ended up with the woman, this was always more comfortable for me, and I felt like I fit in, but never with the guys. I was so desparate to be one of them! It wasn't until I finally accepted myself as Karen that I put a stop to that nonsense, and now I'm happy for it.
Anyway, I was just wondering how hard you all tried to be "one of the guys", or "one of the girls" for my FtM friends?
Karen