Hi everybody! I just recently joined this forum, attracted by the warm of you all. As I've told in my introduction post, I'm a 27 male who sometime likes to CD, even if I don't feel it as a strong urge. I started CDing when I was around 10, and during my life I had up&downs: sometime I stopped with it for even years, other times I was quite into it. Recently my CDing attitude came back quite a bit, and I started buying some lingerie of mine (before I just used to borrow other clothes from my mother and sister).
I understand you (still) don't know me, and after all I'm not looking for someone to make all my doubts clear; however I'm sure many of you have bumped in similar situations, and I can indeed be helped by your experience.
What's the matter, in the end? Well, I'm just questioning my sexual orientation, but beware: I would not be scared at all to discover something "unusual" (so to speak). I'm sufficently open minded to accept anything. It's just I'm curious to understand these aspects of mine. One thing is sure: I like women, not doubt about it! ..still I often have fantasies about being taken by a man, even if the idea of even kissing one repels me (WAY more than having sex with one, which somehow attracts me). Am I bisexual? Well, could be, and there would be nothing bad at it, but somehow I have some doubts.. I feel I would never be able to love a man, that's sure, and my repulsion against kissing one proves that.. maybe I'm just lusty? ..sometime I guess I could just try it, but I'm a bit puzzled at the idea.
As for CDing itself, even if in the past I've had fantasies about being a woman sometime, I don't live it like a problem, since now I'm totally happy to be a man: I've never wanted to be seen by others like a woman, or go out full dressed.. for me wearing lingerie had always been just a way to feel some pleasure, and after all.. they are so nice one me! Despiste this, I do not exclude that in the future CDing could totally disappear from my life: as I've said, it's not such an important thing in my life.
Hope I didn't said too much at once.. I'm just eager to understand some parts of mine which are not easy to talk about with people you know in real life.. I would really appreciate any comment by people who have experienced similar things.
Thanks in advance from you all!