For Sometime now I have just logged in and read the post of everyones. Trying to get to the point of self acceptance. And I think I arrived.
The past 18 months or so like others was pretty rocky.
Went through 2 relationships that crashed. Both new of my feminine side from the word get go. The first had been divorced for a couple of years and went back to her former Husband . Her and I got a long super well.
About 4 months ago We ran into each other and she let me know that her realtionship with her husband didn't work out and she has been in the non dating mode since. She asked if I was seeing any one I said no. Sooooo we mutually agreed that hanging out with each other could be a good thing to do.
And so we started hanging out. And I learned a few things.
(1) She really dosen't mind my dressing.
(2) She does mind my insecurity with it.
Now she wants to date.
I know this will sound crazy when we first quit seeing each other I kind of felt like my heart got yanked out of my chest, thrown down on the ground, jumped up and down on, threw out in front of a oncoming 18 wheeler loaded with nothing but steel, had my heart picked up , run through a meatgrinder and then thrown in some remote waters with pirahnas in them.
OK I have to take a deep breath here......... Ok so the question is do I go back and see if there is anything really there?
Is this just a rebound thing for her??
I do know that the most important issues to me in a relationship is honesty, and being able to communicate. My dressing actually is like , Ok its part of me, Yes I do dress often But I do not want it to be the center of my life.
I want someone in my life that I can cherish , That I can make feel special. And Someone that just dosen't give a damn if I wake up one day and just want to dress and feel pretty.
Ok oK Ok I'm starting to ramble now... Anyway Thanks for listening and I'll try not to be a stranger......