Sisters,
I have fallen head over heels in Love. He is my dream come true. He sees me as beautiful. He has asked me to marry him, nothing legal just before god.
Background. I posted Mr Right and Mr Right #2. We have not made love far from it. He has been the the prefect gentleman, in emails and in person. I have looked into his eyes and have seen the love that is there.
Tonight I looked in the mirror, I mean really looked. I started crying. I do not see anything close to the woman that he has fallen in love with. I feel that it might be best if I don't see him again.
God how I Love him! He makes me feel special, Loved. We have never talked about sex in our emails or in person. We have never talked about sex in anyway. He just tells me that he loves me because I am real, that I write from my heart.
I do not feel that I am worthy of this man's love. I do not see the person that he sees. No, there have been no lies. Everything has be competely open and honest.
I will try to post the email I am about to send. I have asked for your counsel before but never anything of this depth. I know that our collective expericene and knowledge will help guide me.
I will thank yo now for whatever you have to say.
Hugs
Donna Louise
Sweetheart,
I Love You more than life.
I just looked in the mirror and really looked at myself. This is so hard I am crying. I Love You so much. I am not pretty, I am old, I am ugly, I am fat. You deserve more then me. God, How I Love You. I cannot see what you see in me. I feel that you would be better off with someone else. God, how this hurts. I have no idea how I will hide the tears from my wife. They will not stop. I Love You so very much.
I will meet you tomorrow but it will be the last time. I will do my best to hide this from you. Sweetheart, I'm so sorry. I did not mean for this to happen. I do not see myself the way that you do. I see myself as extremely ugly. I will not stand in your way. I hope you the best. God, how I Love You. This the hardest thing I have ever done. Go find someone worthly of your love.
You are such a special man. Any woman would be so proud to have you and your love. I know I am. But I am not what you see. Honey, I'm so sorry. I Love You with every fiber of my being. You deserve better then me.
I will cherrish what few moments we spent together but you must go. You must find someone worthy of your love. I am not, in my eyes that woman is not me.
I will love you forever. As bad as I look now, what will I look like in 5 years, 10 years. Sweetheart, you deserve more. I Love You with all my heart and soul.
I Love You
I will always carry your love in my heart
Donna