Heya all,
I've posted this to my lj (http://www.livejournal.com/users/suicideshy).
And I'd like you all to read it too. Mainly because I'm stuck in a real rutt here and need some support.. Please read my LJ and don't judge me too harshly on my eaerlier comments. I've been going through a period of severe depression. Anyway's here is my latest comment...
And once more I feel torn in two.
I would love to transition, finally throw off all of the bullshit and say to the world, **** you all this is who I am and what I want to do.
But there are consequences.
It would destroy my gf.
We have a life planned, marriage, children, house.. years of living and loving together.
We truly love each other, and that is something so hard to find these days. She is the first person I have ever felt truly loved me.
I can't do it to her. I can't pull down her life and tear it to shreds.
I just don't know how much longer I can put things off for.
I can see how much this is hurting everyone around me. My family, my beloved.
What the **** am I supposed to do?
Help..
- Sophie