I would mourn the loss of Holly, except that she is not gone forever. As many have pointed out, this "urge" for lack of a better word, is difficult if not impossible to simply turn off at the request of even our loved ones. Not that what you have done is wrong in any sense, especially in light of keeping family relations stable. But I also agree that your family needs to come to an understanding of what Cross Dressing actually is and put themselves in your heels for a few minutes. Would they give up thier music or hobby or sport or something that defines them? Permenantly? Don't trash Holly because there is nothing that needs to be trashed. I think you need to find out what the true "complaint" is from your family because thier accusation that Holly is an embarassment, begs the question, "To whom?" Holly was not an embaressment to you, but if she is an embarassment to the family members, then the problem is thier reaction, and thier concern over a percieved public reaction to Holly, not Holly herself. That reaction may or may not be forthcoming, but they are showing thier fear of it. Is it also a fear that you could lose your job, and thus they lose thier way of life? Are they more concerned about the perceived potential for the loss of thier lifestyle than the satisfaction of yours? A lot of time the fear we express is directly related to a fear of loss that we would suffer, not what the person we are targeting would actually suffer. As much as I hate to suggest it (not having had a great deal of luck in this area) this could be the time for FAMILY counseling with someone who has dealt with CD issues (take the time to be specific in asking if they have dealt with CD issues before, it will help winnow the field). All my love Holly, I hope and pray that things will work out for you and your family!
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Originally Posted by Holly
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