It seems my thinking has changed to the point of being obvious once again. There's a family function that usually 'requires' wearing a suit. When I was thinking of what I would wear I instinctively pictured the skirts and tops in my closet wondering which would be appropriate. I saw myself at the function talking to family members dressed in skirt, top and heels. Then I realized what I was doing! I never gave one thought of wearing a suit or even dressing as a man. It just never entered my mind. The thing is, not one person that will be there has ever seen me dressed and many don't even know Julie exists. But it was like I was already living as a woman and this was just as natural as breathing.
But the fact of the matter is I can't shake this image from my head. I can't see myself dressed in a suit. I can't see me dressed as a man. Even at work I have mostly women's clothing on. Thinking of wearing a suit makes my skin crawl. I see myself as a woman. I just can't seem to see myself as a man. Wierd! Or maybe just another step in the process.
I'm not sure how I will resolve this. I really want to go dressed but it just wouldn't be appropriate. I think it's time to begin coming out fully. What a trip that will be!