Lisa - that's very cool hehe.
Yeah I think that too... if I was BORN a boy I'd probably just have a load of other issues... or might not appreciate being a boy. If I transitioned at least I'd really appreciate being a boy. Thank u.
Tina - hehe! I'm glad you saw that. I often do too....
Ty.
Tree....
Absolutely. I totally agree. I feel lucky that I'm not so "binary" as Lisa put it.
hehe yeah, cool!The body/physical part is just biology - needed for propogation of the species.
Very cool very true!... although some might say something about chemicals, chemistry, hormones "just knowing" whatever. I don't though, I totally know what you mean.Other than that, how do you know a loving caress is delivered from a man or a woman if you have your eyes closed?
Awww, thank you so muchAs Lisa said, you've got these eyes that just radiate a sparkling, fun and honest soul.
hehe... that's what my mum says.Why worry about permanent changes? Feel like looking like a boy today - look like a boy. Feel like looking like a typical girl today? - look like a girl.
It's just.... oddly, if I had a male body I would feel more comfortable doing that.
That's true...Even if your presentation is based on what you believe someone you care about wants to see, so what? You're giving them a gift, not changing who you are.
And I was thinking earlier how sad and horrible it must be for my mum.
Annoyingly I am quite good at empathising, so I could feel how horrible it must be for her, even though she's being really brave and kind and sweet about it. The thought that I might break her heart was almost enough to make me just stop thinking about all this, and just try and be a normal girl. Well I actually am already doing that as you know from this thread, but somewhat half-heartedly. Perhaps I should just throw myself into it and try and love it.
Although from what I've read on these boards "purging" your gender problems rarely works.
But in a partner situtation it just feels so ... so... "icky" for want of a better word. I really really just don't want to "do things" with someone with a female body. And even if in the past or one day again I DID... I KNOW that I would way prefer it as a male, and I would be sooo more comfortable and happy as a male in that situation... but then that leads me back to "is it all playing pretend?" would I only feel more comfortable BECAUSE i wasn't being myself, as opposed to because I WAS being myself? Grrr. I'm such a f*ckwit.
It isn't just my appearance it affects either, because I don't just make myself look how other people would like to see me... I sort of get into this whole act thing and sometimes ACT sweet and girly too (albeit in a tomboy way). I suppose all females do that to some degree though. But it's also all very awkward and uncomfortable and embarrasing and, maybe, fake. Maybe.
I feel much more loose and chilled and comfy as a boy... but perhaps it's just because maybe I'm playing pretend or something.
Very very cool. I agree!The women AND men in my life that I respect the most are strong, yet gentle and caring. The point is THE SAME HUMAN SOUL CHARACTERISTICS - doesn't matter which role in species propogation they play.
Yeah. Lucky (?) them that they know...I completely understand this does not apply to those who really are TS and are 100% certain their birth gender is not how they would be happiest.
Hehe, my mum says that too.But if you're not sure, how's about being Pocoyo gendered?
Bah. I expect I'll just be confused forever. (Sorry for sounding negative, I'm feeling a tiny bit low right now. I'm really tired for a few reasons, including this TG cr*p, and the dog has just been being really nasty to me.)Do, say, react, be as makes you feel good about yourself and just let the rest fall into place (because I'm 100% certain it will).
Thank you. I hope it does fall into place
Oh absolutely. That's very cool and something I say all the time.In my book, men can play with dolls (and pantyhose ) and be submissive and kiss boo boos and decorate homes; women can assert themselves and be boisterous and fix cars and not care that their bag doesn't match their shoes.
I would never be a totally steroetypical man (or girl). I'd be really soft and loving. Very silly and fun, whatever.
Awww thank you so much, that's really sweet.Be Pocoyo first, gender second. Cause from where I'm sitting, you are infectious and smiles bloom wherever you go.
It would help if I knew who/what "pocoyo" was to start with. lol.
And it would be sooo cool... to just "be pocoyo" and get on with it... but that also can't stop me having this confusion... the not quite feeling right about my body... the never actually being able to date anyone again (unless I transition).... the frequent yearnings for maleness.
Meh.
Thanks Tree xxxx *hugg*