Tonite everyone hit the hay early...ive the whole house to myself as it were...grabbed some of my fem stuffs so I could enjoy being that me in the office, real computer, fish tank and all...but the clothes have just laid here beside me on the floor and i just picked them up and put them in my desk. why didnt i take advantage of not being sequestered in my crossdressing dungeon, otherwise known as the bedroom, when Im feeling the need to express this me? Why have i sat here for 2 and 1/2 hours, alone and in cargo shorts? For that matter, why am i dressing so much less and needing "gary" time so much less. I think, and yalls input is much needed, that I want to be me with my wife and not alone in this (that would be the altrusistic gary). She is great and very accepting and for now her boundary is it stay out of site...we share the same closet, some of the same clothes and she buys me surprises often but I dont want to be me if I have to be me alone it would seem ( that altru dude again). Shes active here, we talk of cding daily I would guess...but I just dont seem to want to give up so much time with her, or maybe im just selfish and dont like having to hide( maybe this is the gary I know and despise). I have no clue really and as im a male id have to lean more towards the selfish. What wife wouldnt just love to see her husband in a skirt, nice lacy pink top and breasts? At times I honestly cant see how she manages to put up with it as she does yet this all seems to feel like so much less with her not in the picture as I would like her to be. All thoughts, the good, bad and ugly are welcome. Clueless in tennessee...gary