I'm not headless anymore!!!
I fainally did it!! It's a non-headless picture of me!
I went to the wig store and had my make-up done!
It was so exhilarating and nerve racking. There are now two people that know, for a fact, that I am a crossdresser. Of course, my wife knows, but I digress. I drove the 25 miles to the shop enfemme, except for my head & nails. I wanted to paint my nails before I left, but ran out of time. The shop owner, Betty, did my make-up and explained what she was doing as she did it. She said I had beautiful skin and loved my long eyelashes. She also thought I feminine features. She asked if I had work done on my nose! She also thought my nails were gorgeous. With the make-up and wig she thought I would be able to pass easily. She told me some stories of other CD's in the area, actually I guess some were TS since they had SRS. There was a couple that stuck in my mind. One TS who she said was a very handsome man who had SRS and became a beautiful woman. There was one whose wife helped him to look better, every closet CD's dream. She was a very nice lady. If I ever need another wig, I will definitely go back if I am still in the area.
The pictures don't do my wig justice. There are highlights running trough it from brown to auburn. I think there at least 3 shades of red/auburn. I think it was worth the $90 for the wig & $40 for the make-up consult.
After I left the shop, I went to the mall. I sat in the parking lot and painted my nails, then went in. I was sooo self concious. I swear everyone was looking at me. I know they probably weren't, but you know how it is. As I was walking in, I tried not to make ye contact with anyone. The store I was headed for, Icing, was close to the Foodcourt entrance. As I was walking to the store I passed a group of 3 people. I know one of the guys was gay, I've seen him around the mall before, and the one guy closest to me was looking at me. I could tell from his expresion that he knew I was a guy. I just kept walking, I know I shouldn't be ashamed or embaressed, but after being in the closet for so long... I made it to the store and looked a little bit, but split after about a minute. There were a ton of teeny-boppers in there and we all know how rude some of them can be. I thought about walking down to Payless to look at shoes, but after making it to the main corridor crowded with people and a long walk, I chickened out. I didn't feel I passed well enough to be near all those people. I was scared someone would say something. I know, "What does it matter what other people think?" If I thought that way, I wouldn't be in the closet, now would I? I still think I was very brave, and proud of myself for going out.
When I got home, I couldn't wait to get some pictures taken. After looking my self over in the mirror, I couldn't believe how good I looked. I know with a little more work on the make-up, I'll look even better!
I got the weekend free because my wife is out of town visiting her mom. She's not doing so well with the loss of her boyfriend of 13yrs now that the holidays are over. I know, "But President's Day is coming right up." Smartass.The holidays that you have so much to do that you don't have time to think about it. I know she'll pull through, my wife had to learn to be tough from someone. The kids are at my parents as I "work on the house." Yes, I have gotten some stuff done, but not as much as if I wasn't running off with myself, but to damn bad. I have to have some time to myself.
I spent some time this morning getting some make-up supplies. My wife will be gone till Monday, so tomorrow night, it's make-up practice time. If I get some good results, I'll post them too.
I am very happy with the day's outcome and much more sure of myself. I'm not going to hide as much. How can I with pictures of my face on the Net? I also never realized how good of a job I did picking my breast size till I looked at the pictures I took.
I thought about going to Club Fusion, the GLBT bar in town, but it's not open at 6:00 for some reason. Maybe the next time I have a weekend free.
FYI The wig I got: the brand is Estetica Designs, style Jessica, color R36F.
Later,
Katrina.
great first time picture. Sharon. xxx
