What is really behind the drive to do what we do? Why do we spend so much time and energy to look like, feel like and try to be perceived as a woman? We're men, dammit (as an infamous one time poster said), can't we just admit that and be satisfied with that? The simple answer is: No! We are not JUST men, we are thinking men and recognize a "good thing" when we see it. Even so, this creates no small amount of consternation and confusion for our loved ones and SO's. Isn't our manliness what attracted them to us to begin with? True enough but it was also other qualities, the "softer" ones such as compassion, caring and understanding, qualities that are "forbidden" to men by a hostile society. In an attempt to make sense of all of this, many of us have to compensate and CDing is one way to do that.
Many here will no doubt say that this is just "me" and the way I am and accept that. That is fine but it doesn't really answer the question on what drives us to begin with. Many of our spouses would really love to know the answer to that so they can understand. We accept breathing, eating and sleeping as things we must do to survive and most of the time we don't give them a second thought, just do them. They are, however, central and necessary to our continued existence. To many of us, CDing is just as central and many of us cannot imagine life without it or would have a miserable existence at best.
After pondering this somewhat, I've concluded what drives me is the need to get in touch with my deep feelings, feelings that otherwise would never be touched by a "normal" man,feelings that help me to explain my purpose and feelings that get me more in touch with my overall humanity and help me to understand things better. That is what drives me. What about you?
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Originally Posted by Pippilotta
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