OK after reading "on the GG side" thread and seeing something about counseling ,i just had to find out how we all deal with the isues that cding throws up.
Something iv been very concerned about lately is if i have a split personality.
Iv been chating with a new friend hear.Originally Posted by dictionary.com
We'v been haveing a bit of a giggle about how our fem side's like something that our male side's dont.
I think it could help explain just why we have such hard times telling people.
When i think split personality the 1st thing that comes to mind is the odd film where someone has a seconde personality that gos out killing people & there main personae dosnt even know.
Its no where near that bad as we are at least awear of our second personality and are often working in some way to combine them.
Funnily enough it seams to me at this point ,when we are at our most vulnerable ,things go hideously wrong.
Maybe i should break into a storie to show just what i mean.
This is going to sound so familiar to some as i remember seeing things from GG's in the past along the lines of "he told me but why wont he share with me".
OK where to start.
I must have been about 3-5 years into my cding life & was in the middle of secondary school (for 11-16 yearolds).
I had been hideing my cding & i would say creating my second personae.
This combined with normal school life and some medical isues lead to me missing more and more school.
Was no way i was doing PE with shaved legs !
Well this must have been starting to get to my mum as she decided to come home for lunch one day.
So i did the mad dash thing desperately trying to clean up and hide.
Affter trying to hide everything i had spread about i dived into bed and tryed to look asleap !
Id ended up leaving something in the middle of my room that she noticed and tryed to chat to me (in a very comforting way) but i done the not intrested asleap tenager thing.
She tryed doing a few other things at times to get me to chat about it (she was great).
I even remember geting draged to a counselor once.
The counselor arsked if i had anything i wanted to talk about & i said no
Then the counselor and my mum had a long private chat .
Still dont have a clue if that was for missing to much school or geting caught.
If i was arsked why i didnt want to talk to them now i would have to say.
I was in the middle of creating my seconde personae due to my male side shunning my femy side.
I really truely hated my fem side at that point and would have done anything to have goten ride of her.
My femy self on the other hand was loveing the chance to finally express her self.
Somehow i never did have that conversation with my mum and feel now like i might have nailed a door shut.
Recently she has signed for the odd package that had subtle identifying female markings.
Im hopeing shes just given up trying to get it out of me and that is not a ,i dont really want to know what you get upto when im not about thing.
So theres got to be a fair few ladys hear that have been to counseling.
Has the tearm split personalities ever come up ? or am i just makeing excuses for being to cowadly to chat to my mum and over thinking things again ?