I am in my early 40s and have secretly dressed (mostly lingerie and heels) since I was a teenager. It was a part of my life that I have really only shared with one other person (my partner of 12 years) and never thought too much about. Now, in the past six months or so, I have had a very strong desire to dress up more often, more fully, and to go out. I am not sure where these feelings have come from -- and, I have to admit, I am not dealing with them all that well. In the past, I might go several months without dressing, or maybe only do it once a month, but now I seem to be thinking about it all the time. I've shared these new feelings with my partner and he was initially supportive, but the reaction has definitely cooled since then. I haven't really acted on these feelings, making things even more frustrating.
Has anyone else experienced this kind of sudden surge of feelings for crossdressing? I'd like to be more comfortable with it and allow myself to explore it all some more, but finding it all a bit difficult and troubling.