So I've had a rough time dealing with all kinds of things going around in my noggin' for some time. I haven't come here in quite awhile because I tend to forget about rules and such and get myself full of trouble. But here is where I do feel comfortable and I get goofy.
Some of you no my past and some don't but I'm not going to get into the thick of it. The wife still doesn't understand and still wants no part of crossdressing and recently I thought I lost her for good. We're still together and slowly healing.
During this period i've cried lots been sullen alot but I'm coming around. I came out to my sister who has been a big help and said she is very cool about my whole cding issues. So great support there. She is absolutely wonderful but about 1000 miles across Canada.
This brings up today! I'm living a dream today and it maybe gone tomorrow but for today it's awesome. I decided to tell my troubles to a friend of mine in Calgary. Who just luved the whole idea of it. Thinks it's amazing but sympathized about how my wife had alot to deal with because this is not what she signed on this marriage for.
As the conversation continued he brought up a friend of his whom I've done artwork for. I've only talked to her and never really met her face to face. But anyway we were goofing with the idea of going shopping for some girl clothes for me and hitting some clubs where CDies can be comfortable.
Well I said if his friend would do my make-up I'm into it.
This was afterall just fun and games right not serious. Well he went to her office and asked and yep she is totally into it as well. The conversation was totally whacky but she said that I could have any make-up she no longer wanted and would even take me Bra shopping! Just on the matter of fact that she needed one too!
So a complete make-overby a GG, clothes and bra shopping throw in some club hopping and wow what a conversation.
Back to reality how do tell the wife that I want to do this because she is leaving to visit her family at the same time and I cannot get the entire week off to go with her.
Here is the other problem. I'm extremely shy and tend to be completely introverted at times. Typing on MSN is one thing and shopping for bras and club hopping are not in my comfort zone.
I have a week to decide. But I'm so nervous I could wet myself now.
Big decisions. Please help.