Originally Posted by
edina1
On trying to come to terms with my dressing after being widowed it came as a great shock to realise that if I had been much shorter and slighter and had not had children - who are now grown up and much loved, I might well have tried to live as a woman. Things are not that way of course and I have much in my actual life to be very thankful for, but this realisation was very disturbing, hinting more at my inner feelings of self, and struck deeply in the conflicts of personal honesty and social accommodation I'm sure many of us find. I've put this thought away now, put it in a place, and know it's not going to be for me, and get on with doing all my guy stuff with an occasional twist... but how many others have had these thoughts and how do they handle them?