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    Crossdressing and chemical addiction?

    Fellow Forum members,

    This question has been on my heart for a while. I have crossdressed from childhood and feel that addictions to drugs and alcohol developed latter to cope with the pain, stress, and guilt over crossdressing. I have read and learned that many people who have a alternative sexual identification or practice such as crossdressing, which is not accepted by society, have a high rate of chemical addiction. Any others with like issues, or having a viewpoint supporting, or instead believing there to be no higher incidence or chemical addiction amongst us?

    This is to open up a thread for private conversation, or general post.

    Jenny

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    jenny i too hade well to say the least a probleme that was as mutch my "him" life style sait was hidding my cding .....dame neer killed us bouth the more i/"him" fought this fem side un till "he"crashed and burned big time in rehab and our frist thearpy wendy came out kicking ang scearming ......never to be put away again..........

    our deanons coke and jd sour mash ........a few trips to round things out and pot was like smokeing butts .........pills up down bounce off the walls .......at one time i was like emberased to talk abought it but now i realize that by talking abought it thats how you learn and grow from your mistakes in your past...........

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    I've never smoked, or drinked - I love my body too much to mess with it for no reason. I got over the guilt thing relatively fast, because I gave up on religion. At the same time, they say that one cannot get rid of addiction - only substitute it with another one - so if you treat CD'ing as an addiction, it would make sense that one would try to get out of it, by adopting another.

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    trinity cding was who i was the addication was from deninleing who i realy was .............

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    repression

    I agree with trinity when you repress your femm side your in a constant state of turmoil and seek releif in other things
    I may be being over simplistic as I don't know much about addiction my only vices bieng.....Alchohol,Cigaretts,Drugs And sex Ha!
    seriously though since I accepted who i am I'm much happier and no longer feel the need to prove my masculinity by going out with the lads and getting p***ed every weekend.
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    The human mind is very powerful,and if your brain likes what you do then you will want it more.Thats addiction as I know it.Dressing up in girls clothes at a young age because you want to be a girl ,is very exciting,and this can be the start of an addiction.Im sure you all remember the first time you tried on girls clothes.... YES!!.....For me, I can remember trying on my sisters panties for the first time,the feeling of excitment being able to express my femininity, mixed with the powerful feeling of guilt.Now if that doesnt get the old addictive chemicals pumping nothing will!!

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    Hi Jenney,

    I have been addicted to most of the drugs known to man. I still am to some. I don't think this has as much to do with crossdressing as to dealing with the shit life throws at you some time. I also drink far more than I should.I have a shrink and a therapist and on enough meds to tranquilize a whale.I am also facing possible heart surgery because of wrong choices. I cannot, in good concience,say that crossdressing is the cause. My wife,who is a social worker with 37 years experiance says I have a classic case of attention deficate disease that was never treated. In short life sucks.
    I have PTSD from Vietnam,Depression,ADD,Paranoid delusians. I am Nuts and I gladley accept that. I do'nt expect to die from old age.But at least I have lived.This is too depressing.

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    Hi Jenny,

    I am a recovering alcoholic of 20+ years. I presume I would have done drugs as well; however, alcohol always did "it" for me until it stopped doing "it" and doing "it" was killing me anyway.

    Crossdressing I suspose is an addiction, but I haven't found that doing it over time causes it to fade into a curse as alcohol abuse did. I love the way I feel when I dress and go out in public. As a male, I care little about the way I present myself (except for being clean and shaven); however, as a female, that is another story.

    Hugs, Paige W.

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    Hello Jenny, I must say love you make a really good point here.
    I always was either smoking weed or drinking for years as a way of easing the feelings of being transgendered.
    Well it got really, really bad about 6 years ago, I became addicted to coidenne (take no notice of the spelling) I was boozing all the time and smoking weed like it was going out of fashion. I was a real mess.
    In the end I admitted to Jane (my wife) that I was a tranny, she told me that she would support and help me providing that I cleaned up my act.
    That was good enough for me and I stopped all the abuse there and then on the spot, for a while after that I went through hell, but once out of the withdrawl stages I've never looked back and life now is totally 100% better.

    I truely know that I did abuse the booze and drugs simply to mask the pain, guilt and shame of being transgendered. Now I go public and I can honestly tell anyone with pride that I am a tranny, I dont even smoke tobacaco anymore.

    One little vice though I will admit to is the odd little spliffy once every blue moon .


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    I've noticed a few patterns about my pattern of crossdressing. Firstly I've noticed that although it's always on my mind, the craving is much more intense when I'm under stress. I've noticed that dressing as a girl is much more effective at relieving stress than doing exercise, or getting pissed. I've also noticed that if I try to answer the [constant] cravings with low level cd-ing (e.g. by wearing pantyhose to work), then the level just gets raised... so I end up dressing even more. I can't win.

    The analogy with smoking is a good one. My fiancee is supportive but concerned. So to make her feel better I try to minimize the time that I spend crossdressing. I have found that this actually has the effect of driving me nuts. If I try to cut down, or heaven-forbid, go cold-turkey, I can think about nothing else until I dress again.

    I just don't have the will-power to quit (mainly because I don't think I really want to).

    I don't feel I can win.

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    Hmmm. What a thread for me. I've used it all, trying to get altered. Why? I ask myself that many times. I don't know why. I don't know why I want to be in an altered state. I guess to break the struggle?

    When I first started dressing, not long ago, it was always with alchohol. I used it more and more with each dressing time. Then I quit, all of it (well except for the occasional times that you all know so well). I ask myself why I am who I am now. I ask God (not knowing if I'm asking one who exists), and don't know, but I'm trying to just live and realize the complex nature of humanity, sexuality, and gender. It's complex, we are all different, and we are all OK. Crap, I spent so many years hating myself. Crap.

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    I am addicted to caffine. No, really, stop laughing, I am serious. I drink a 12pk of mountain dew a day. Never am I seen with out one in my hand. Funerals, weddings, u name it and I am popping caffine. On top of the dew I pop those little pills all day long. I have to take them to stay up or I go into caffine depression and I can't function. I don't ever feel jittery or wired, just normal. My hands constantly shake and I sometimes have trouble holding onto things.

    But thats it. Never seen any real drugs, marijuania, coke, or anything like that. Never wanted to.

    When I was a teen I drank alot. 24pk of beer every other day and a bottle of Jim Beam whenever I could afford it. I was homeless and it helped to pass the time. More than one occasion I would go to school drunk and try to sleep it off in class so I could go to work that evening. During a drunken morning I assaulted a teacher and was committed to a mental instituition. But thats another story in and of itself.

    Rarely do I drink now. Maybe a beer or two on holidays. I am such a lightweight. lol. It just isn't for me.

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    Okay, so I'm not a crossdresser but I love one in real life
    Me, addictions! Oh honey, you don't know. Started dabbling at 11, smoking pot and drinking. By the ripe old age of 14 I had landed myself in drug rehab having overdosed on a gram of angel dust. Spent the better part of my summer and 8th grade there. My career of substance abuse continued until I was about 21 or 22. That's when I finally quit it all. Moved away from my abusive, alcoholic b/f and never looked back. It's not been an easy life for me. I have made some very bad choices, obviously.
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    I can't say I know enough other CD'ers to really say if there is a higher incidence or chemical addiction amongst us. I know I spent most of my 20's in a drunken stupor, with a lot of grass and occosional acid trip thrown in for good measure. But I can't say I did it all because I was hiding my CD'ing from myself or anyone else. I never ended up in treatment or got hooked on powders or crystals like many of my friends did. Now 20 years later I still drink, but not to excess very often and still partake in the weed a few times a week.

    I guess it could be because I excepted myself as a crossdresser way back in my teens. Sure I kept it hidden from others but never from myself. But really I think if you looked at all the crossdressers, not just the ones you hear about you will find that there are cd'ers from all walks of life and our statistics wether it be drugs, intelegence, political party, or what have you, will fall right in line with the general population.

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    Cross-dressing didn't cause alcoholism

    I’m a recovering alcoholic, seven years sober. I don’t think my cross-dressing caused my alcoholism or my alcoholism my cross-dressing. Cross-dressing was, however, a source of shame that I had to deal with. I joined AA and had, as part of my program, to do what’s called a 4th and 5th step.


    (4) Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
    (5) Admitted to God, to ourselves and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.


    I wasn’t sure if cross-dressing qualified as ‘a wrong’ but I was taking no chances; I needed sobriety more than anything, it was a question of survival for me.

    No one in my life at that time knew about my cross-dressing, not even my wife of (at the time) seven years. So, I nervously told my sponsor that I cross-dress and was blown away when his reaction was to say that cross-dressing didn’t count. Don’t get me wrong, I did a few things that did count and had a few amends to make, but my sponsor thought cross-dressing was not a big deal, unless, he said, I was really worried about it, which case maybe I should come to terms with why it worried me. Wow! That was not what I expected.

    In sobriety I have come to accept my cross-dressing and it is no longer a source of shame or a cause of self-loathing. I’ve told my wife, who has been wonderfully accepting about it; that was another ‘wow! that was not what I expected’ moment.

    I come from a long line of alcoholics, none of whom, as far as I know, were cross-dressers and I have no doubt that cross-dressing did not cause my alcoholism. However, my alcoholism definitely limited my ability to deal maturely, responsibly and serenely with everything, including my desire to cross-dress.
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    Perfect substitute-drug

    Strange thing is that my crossdressing kinda gave me a way out when my drug-use got out of hand now and again. Crossdressing usually seemed to work as a sort of methadon to me.Where other people had terrible withdrawl-symptoms i always had the perfect substitute.
    Don't think we have more addictive personality's either.We do have stressy lives though,Which gives us more reasons to escape from everyday-life.Specially goes for the sisters with double-lives. Have been using drugs for along time(still like to do a little cannabis and a drink now and again) but never got seriously addicted to anything.

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    There has been many times in my life when terrible things have happened to me but I have never taken drugs to ease the "pain". Taking drugs and drink as a way of dealing with the downs in life doesn't solve it, that problem remains and still has to be dealt with.

    I have seen over the years many friends and some relations destroyed this way, the saddest thing is that most times they beleived they could control their addiction, and everyone else knew they couldn't.

    I suppose my addiction is crossdressing as with others in this thread, in the past when I was able to Dress in times of crisis, I was able to deal with that crisis much better. Now that I can "dress" when I want, I am a much more relaxed person, and able to cope better the depression that takes hold of me at times.




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