Well, I've got it.....Went to the doctor today and he gave Me My prescription for testosterone....I filled at a nearby pharmacy and am about to begin the biggest adventure of My life....and am VERY excited....Toni and I talked it over and decided that since the transition is smoother on the Androgel, I am going to use that for a while....It comes in individual packets, you apply it once per day (in the morning) to a dry, hairless part of the body (back, arm, shoulder, stomach, etc.), let it dry for about 20 minutes uncovered, and then make sure that no one touches that part of your body for four hours because it can transfer to them...I am going to switch to shots in a while, but in the beginning, have decided this is the best way for Me....Another good thing is that I told him (the doctor) that I used to work for a doctor and am trained in medical assisting, so am well qualified to give My own injections...He said, if you can, good...If you want to switch and don't like the gel, just call Me and I will order the injectable and you can start giving it to yourself....So I am set....Tomorrow morning, I will put it on for the first time.... I can't believe the euphoric feeling that I have knowing it's there...Boy Juice....The stuff that will bring out what has ALWAYS been inside of Me.....and that no one could ever see....I have no one left to inform, My family all knows....The fact that some are less than thrilled really doesn't bother Me anymore...I am going to see ME for the first time.....starting tomorrow....Just....wow..... Will post regular updates as My transition progresses...but for now....I am just at peace...and looking forward to the most unbelievable journey I have ever undertaken....and I am so glad to have such great friends as all of you to take along on the ride.... Hugs and Much Love....**Trey**