Hello Lynn. I read your letter and found it touching and heartfelt and it really got to me a bit, so I'd like to respond even though I'm a newbie here and there are many with more experience and wisdom from life experiences in this forum. So far I've gotten great support from many. I'm thinking there may be two seperate issues here in your SO CDing and maybe being gay or bi curious. imo, I think there are many grey areas and you should keep in mind not all fit into some neat little category. We're all different here, with different levels of CDing and sexual orientation. The key is to be honest about what those levels are and that they may be ever changing. I took on the "am I gay?" issue very early on due to my attraction to dressing and came out feeling confident that I'm straight. If I were gay I would have struggled with it but come to terms with it and probably be very happy now. However, I didn't do the same thing with dressing until now and wish I had done this sooner. Who knows, I may have missed some great oppurtunities in relationships with GGs because I wasn't honest. In the end I don't care if the whole world looks down on my dressing as long as I can find just one GG who will accept me for who I am. If your SO has pushed you away it really makes me suspicious there may be other issues, sex-gender related or otherwise. I'm curious when you say you confronted him and it didn't go well. If you feel inclined you could elaborate on that a bit more?
I really wish the best for both of you to work through this crisis, and I think open communication is the key. Stick around here and you will find the majority of this forum is understanding, willing to listen and will offer some great advice. I know now the whole world doesn't look down on my dressing and the many wonderful people here are proof of that. It's helped me a bunch to feel better about myself.