Sorry, I'm not sure if I'm ranting, venting, or whether I'm here for advice or what, I don't know. I guess maybe someone can confirm my feelings.
I guess I would classify myself as a TS, but due to work, friends, family, etc., I have yet to transition full-time. Nevertheless, I still yearn for a relationship with a nice, wonderful, caring man. So I placed ads on various websites, get contacted with men who appear to be wonderful and promising. I'm the type of person who's shy at first because of cautionary measures I guess, but then I warm up quite easily if the chemistry is there. Over time, I met a couple guys whom I thought were the guys I was looking for. They said the right stuff, I felt the connection went both way... and the next day, they disappeared! The worst is that I truly lay myself out there including sending them a picture. Do you know what a big step that is? i mean i won't even post a face pic to my sister's on this site. now a whole litany of scenarios are running through my head from anger to what if he posts it on the front page of newspaper tomorrow. i don't know... it sucks! i guess i'm not angry at the fact that they don't want to pursue things or anything... they can't help it, i can't help it and frankly, i've done it to men before. but the difference is that i've always told them i wasn't interested that "i'm sorry, i just don't think there's a connection or chemistry", whatever it is, i would politely write an email, call them, to explain. here i'm left in limbo. all i need is closure i guess. i wonder if i built bad karma by rejecting all the men i didn't have a connection with. seriously, if i didn't have a roommate i would certainly just curl up and cry my eyes out.