Originally Posted by
Julie M.
After all I have been through I wonder if I would have been better off repressing these feelings for the next 20 or so years and just went to my grave with the secret. I don't know if I would have been able to but losing all I have, even though I decided not to transition, has been so painful. This is not something to be taken lightly, no matter how strongly you feel about it. There's never been a day in my life I didn't wish someone would pass a magic wand over me and make me female. But doing it the only way we know how today can be very painful, both physically and mentally.