Hi ladies. Im currently in the middle of a persoanal chrisis - I dont think chrisis is too strong a word to use. My wife knows fully supports, accepts and even encourages Paula but recently I find myself wanting more. Dont get me wrong I love her and respect her too much to ever do anything about. Although she accepts etc etc etc i dont think she understands totally how much Paula is part of me, she has an idea, but she doesnt fully appreciate quite how much (and why should she?!)
I am incresingly finding myself drawn to the idea of wanting a relationship with another T-Girl. Ive always regarded myself as totally Hetro but im beginning to question this, may be I am Bisexual - gawd, thats the first time ive ever said that out loud!
The thought of going with another guy is not something i could even consider however i find "T-girls" very very attractive and increasingly sexually attractive, im realy struggling to cope with this newly accepted facet to my own make up/personality and i realy dont know what to do - if anything!
Theres no way i could ever throw this at my wife, shes been brilliant in supporting Paula upto now and i know she suspects my attraction to other t-girls but i could never expect her to accept that i have a real life desire to test that route.
Part of me simply wants to try and ignore this part of personality but another part of me thinks that would be futile. If its who/what i am then will i do more harm to my relationship if i try to suppress it?
Confused and at a bit of a low!
Paula x