Hello all, I've been doing a lot of soul-searching lately regarding my "tendencies" and I would like to share a bit of my mindset with you.
Ever since I was young (maybe 13ish, puberty probably) I have had an urge to wear what is technically known as womens clothing. In particular skirts, tights, panties, stockings and heels. I have always found it to be a sexual urge that makes me want to dress. Although I have spent whole days dressed I dont think I would do it if it didnt turn me on.
Only recently have I began to buy/wear bra's and blouses and earlier this year bought my first wigs.
What I have found myself thinking about a lot recently is how much I enjoy dressing in skirts and heels and panties etc but keeping the top half of me as a bloke.
I like wearing black eye liner and dark shades of nail paint, but I dont want to go down the road of the whole make-over every time I dress. I do want to on the odd occasion, but for the rest of the time I'd rather just be me in the comfy but sexy feeling clobber.
I have gone out like this a number of times recently and feel more comfortable doing it.
What I have found more and more disconcerting over the last few years is having what is regarded as a "normal" sex life. I dont have one anymore
I'm always thinking about Dressing whenever I have sex with my GF. As I said above I have started wearing eye liner and nail paint, actually got my GF to kinda suggest it so that it was more like her decision to make me over, sneaky or what?
She knows all about my crossdressing, and is okay with it but not as supportive as I want her to be. I'd love to go shopping with her and have her pick clothes for me etc, but she wont and I dont push it.
I'm just worried this feeling, urge, tendency, call it what you will? is starting to create a problem that I cannot do anything about.