I'm a 37 year old crossdresser and have been since I was a kid. Besides crossdressing in private, I've never really taken it any further. I have been out in public as a girl once (which went well), but I've never been to any TV bars or clubs etc.
I'm single and although I'm straight and not attracted to guys, I get really excited by the idea of hanging out with a guy (non-TV) who will treat me like a real girl. I'm not interested in sex, just friendship. I've tried posting ads online a few times, and I always get plenty of replies, so I know I could find a guy interested.
Besides crossdressing, I also have some kinky fetishes. My main fantasy is about being tied up by a guy and tickled! This is also something I'd like to try for real.
The thing is I'm very nervous about meeting a guy because I don't know if meeting a guy for real would be something I'd enjoy, or whether I'd just feel really awkward and embarrassed.
Is there anyone else who used to feel this way and decided to meet up with a guy? How did it go, was it the right thing to do or was it a mistake?