Ok, as my first proper post, I thought I'd share some of my experiences and thoughts.
Firstly, I'll try not to repeat what I said in my intro post promise. However, I'm curious to know. How many bi-gender boys are posters on this forum? Can anybody relate to the confusion that comes with being bi-gender?
After all, I am not trans-gender. I have no desire to change my gender and actually I love being a girl, part of the time. Other days, I will get up and feel like a dandy goth/emo boy. I'll don dark make-up, vampirish garb and ACT like a COMPLETELY different person. My Bf says he can tell when my mental switch happens. He claims I sit differently, my voice changes and even the facial expressions I use when we talk alter! Personally, I don't notice the changes. They just sort of happen. Can anyone else relate?
Trying to explain my feelings to people I know is very hard, since it seems that bi-genderism is a new thing, even in the trans community. Most people laugh it off as a fetish, some (in the community) accuse me of bandwagon jumping.
I remember a conversation with one M2F in pubic chat, where she was begging me to "stay a GG" claiming that "supportive GG's are rare and beautiful" She felt that she needed me to stay a GG rather than "ruining myself because I feel the need to belong to the trans community."
She went on to say, that "I was simply playing dress-up and it made a mockery of her struggles as a transwoman" I stress again that, this was in public chat and on voice no less. I had been a regular face in chat and had been supportive to all the 'girls' and 'boys' for many years. However, when I was being publicly ripped apart, nobody spoke up for me.
I was so hurt and pretty much ceased going to chat. I tried to keep going, but every time I went on voice, I was laughed at and called a freak. I was forced to defend myself "Your voice is too high to be a boy, lets hear your boy voice then? You're not a boy!!" and things of this nature. Needless to say, I'm over it now. I simply wanted to share and see if any one else can relate? I am lucky to have a few friends who DO understand and most of them aren't trans! Funny that, isn't it?
Any thoughts?