We're all a little different. Some of us are crossdressers, others slide a bit further over on the bell curve. Some are transexual, others identify as transgendered. My user name here says TG because for me, it goes a bit further than just the clothes. Sure, the clothing is a huge part of it, but there's a part of me that always laments that I'm not a woman, and that part feels that that is what my life should have been. That's the TG part.
I've concluded that transition and surgery will not be the path I take in life. Accepting that has been the leading factor in my coming to grips with the whole transgendered thing, and has allowed me to have a whole lot more fun crossdressing. It is a huge weight to not have to carry.
I got new hair last weekend. It has been wonderful, too. The color is much closer to what my real hair is like, or was before the gray set in. The cut is very much to my taste as well, and it frames my face very well. But something strange happens when I wear it. Now when I look in the mirror, I see very much the woman I might have been had I had the fortune to have been born female. I feel like I'm seeing me the way I should really look, the way I'm supposed to look. Does this ever happen to any of you?
I really don't want to dredge any old issues within myself, and rekindle the horrible longing I used to deal with all the time so many years ago. I buried those problems, but I guess I didn't kill them. I think I need to confirm within myself that the choices I've made regarding my old gender issues are the correct ones, and embrace them firmly again, lest I cripple myself with TG issues once more.
Meanwhile, I sure feel pretty when I dress these days, and I'm really enjoying it.