:2c:well i don't talk much here, but tonight I've had a some drinks and I'm having some thoughts i need to share.
ok i am such a guy most of the time and if you talked o me on the street, or you are my friend and you dont really now me,and even if you do you would think what the hell '',he seams like such a normal guy to me.
and like a normal guy in my day to day life ,i almost forget that I'm a crossdresser,that is until i get home alone and then i start to feal feminin,and my mind goes into some of my fantacys.
what I'm getting at is sometimes i have a real hard time trying to figure out why i dress and most of the time i don't dress but i want to.
and this is not something that just started with me.
my first memory of crossing was wen i was 5/6 years old, i remember putting on my moms lipstick. i remember wishing that i could go to school as a girl.
but more importantly i wanted to be a girl.
and to be honest about things that has not changed I'm going to try and shorten this thread,what I'm getting at is why do i feal so much like a guy and so much like a girl?I'm just asking if any of you feal the same?
for me its like I'm split right in half,but one cant deal with the outher.anyway i bought this computer and i found this site two weeks ago.
I've bin alone with my dressing to deal with it totally alone for 29 years
and i haven't faird so well.
i think i just want to know where i fit in to all this.
anything that u have to say or share i would like to hear it
and by the way i had never seen a real cross dresser before two weeks ago and you all look so great i hope that in time i will have the ballstoo post some picks thanks for reading this thread
