Quote Originally Posted by TGMarla View Post
I feel that I am transgendered, rather than strictly a crossdresser. There is a part of me that really wishes I had had the fortune of being female rather than male. The feeling never really goes away, and stays with me every day and at most times. I have decided that I will not pursue transition and SRS, though. Things are just going to have to stay the way they are physically. I'm too steeped into the life I have now to make such radical alterations to it. But it is an omnipresent regret that I can never experience true womanhood.
I have reached a similar state of resignation, though in my own case I'm not sure that I'm not just rationalizing. I believe, quite sincerely, that if I were forty years younger, I would be transitioning fully (if only I had known then what I know now).