Ze, you really need to go on a forum that is for FtMs and Femmes, thats how i got Esther ...thats if the present interest doesn't work out...i can give you links lol
Kinda sorta tried that already...I don't think it's my bag. I always feel silly; like it's all in vain or something. But thanks.
The crossdressing community is one that needs to stick together and continue to be there for each other for whatever one needs. We are always trying to improve the forum to better serve the crossdresser in all of us.