So I've been in the closet for the last 6 years (which is the total length I've been crossdressing for) and have been consumed with fear ever since about being discovered. I first came out to my first long term girlfriend, who treated it much like a drug addiction which must be cleansed. The only other person I've told is my current girlfriend, who is currently my fiancée'. She is much more accepting although still having some trouble completely accepting it. To get to the point of this post however, tonight I did something I had absolutely no intention of. As it is my parents 25th anniversary party today I had an absolute guarantee that my parents and sister were definitely not going to return until the next morning, thus I had the house completely to myself. As I often do in situations like this, I decided to crossdress fully, with shoes, make up and hair etc. While in the process of doing this (perhaps even before now that I think about it) I became filled with an incredible desire to go outside. It was nearing 2 in the morning so I was pretty confident that I wouldn't bump into anyone, much less someone I know. So much to my surprise, after applying some basic makeup I actually opened the door and went outside. Much to my surprise, I didn't at all feel nervous like I thought I would, although I was walking quite fast (I think that is just how I walk though). In fact I only planned to walk around in front of the shops on the other side of the road and come back, but as I did I felt like I wanted to stay out a bit more and went around the other side as well. I would have carried on and walked around and through the highstreet, but that would have required me to walk past one of my best friends houses, not to mention the highstreet isn't the safest of places even at this time unlike my street. I was wearing the same outfit as pictured in my latest post in the photo's section but with some basic makeup and hair. Still on a bit of a high and I really want to take it further, but I am still afraid of what would happen if I bump into someone I know, and neither I nor my SO can drive so I can't easily get to somewhere far away to go out. I now know without doubt I want to take this further though. The safest way of going about this I can think of would be dressing up for halloween which I definitely want to do (in fact I've found an Elvira costume specially for men)
