Just a little preamble before I ask my question. There was a thread recently about whether 'having a female side' is appropriate for us, and if we say it how do we mean it. I have talked about my female side but really it is the part of me who I have always been that I had to hide from others who would have had very negative reactions. She is me and always has been. I've just recently started to accept that I've repressed a very important part of myself.
So, in a round about kind of way here's my question. My kitchen sink and taps recently commited suicide. I had to save the money to get them fixed. The plumber who came was a big guy. Only an inch or two taller than me but a much sturdier build. I felt very slender by comparison and oddly it reinforced how feminine my body is compared to big men. The truly weird bit is that later that night my mind wandered to thinking about being a woman and then wondering if the plumber guy would find me attractive. Even weirder, I wanted him to find me attractive. Is this a normal part of accepting my new amalgamated self? I wouldn't want to have sex with a man as a man, and always thought I'd be a lesbian if I could become a woman.
