Hi Nikki,
I would recommend seeing a professional therapist, if you are finding that you are feeling very depressed about these feelings. As another thought - have you thought about the fact that perhaps there is nothing wrong with you, and you are discovering your feminine side? Many of us have gone through this and many of us in this forum are 'man's man' CD'rs, who are coming to or have come to accept this wonderful part of our being. I do not see anything wrong in enjoying our feminine side and am celebrating this discovery. I follow my wife's boundaries, as I would never jeopardize our marriage. However, I totally enjoy being a man, and wouldn't change this part of me. I do, however, enjoy the times when the 'she' in me, surfaces and wants to express herself.
I find it is all fun, and gives me an inner spiritual peace of mind and body. So, I am enjoying this experience and I hope you will come to find your inner peace and spiritual balance. Good luck to you.
Di
