Hi Paula, I'm Amie Marie. Just like you I too feel shame at times about being outed as a cd'er. I don't want anyone to know and I contribute some of that on the way I was raised and society. I have hidden for so long that even admitting it to a bunch of strangers on line scared me to death. After coming back to this website for many months and reading the posts that were public I finally joined. I now have learned I am not alone in this "strange" world (no offence girls) but have so many friends on here to support me. You have that same support group here for cd'ing that you have at AA for the drinking. For what it is worth IMO, the only one you have to admit anything to is yourself then when your ready stand up and shout. HI EVERYONE I AM A CROSSDRESSER AND I DO IT FOR MYSELF! In the meantime now that everyone here is ready for you when you do. I learned that just recent.