i completely agree with this, it doesnt go away, and as for a girlfriend, i have 2 beautiful children, and a loving partner who works very hard, being a cross dresser isnt a state of mind its what makes us who we are, not what we want to be, ive been doing this since i was 13 years old or so, i am now 33, it doesnt go away because of sexual relations, or just company, if you embrace it it can help you become a more loving person towards your partner i feel, and maybe then you might find the person you are wanting to be or looking for. also i dont feel that being a cross dresser is something that satisfys me sexually eithor, it doesnt arrouse me, if pleases me inside that i enjoy the feeling it gives by making me look and feel nice about myself