Have you considered seeing an abuse counselor? Many women's shelters and other providers of abuse counseling services have programs for men as well (dunno if I'd try to use the CD angle to get a counselor that doesn't have a program for men). And they provide these services free of cost. What you've described to me, including family and previous employment, sounds like long-term abuse. No friends, but you were with her for 10 years? How does that work, exactly?
I'd check with your local SANE program (as my friend who is a director of the SANE program in her area recommended to me at one point...).