Hello! wonderful people,
I know it's been aeons since i posted anything here except some random pictures. This is some kind of an update on what's goin' on in my life.
It's been quite an extraordinary journey, i can't believe i made this far. I've always knew i was different from my childhood but i thought it'd all go away as i get older. I was wrong, things only got worse and complicated. The self discovery of being transgender was incredibly confusing to say the least. The constant feeling of gender dysphoria has pushed me into severe depression. The hardest part of depression is that you really feel lonely and makes you shut the world out. I lost most of my friends and i found it extremely difficult to cope up with it. I've never been so hopeless in my life that now i see no purpose in living it. Nothing interests me any more, even the things i loved the most. I've been living my life, constantly resisting the desire to end it.
It is scary and extremely complicated to take those hard-life-changing decisions. Call it cowardice, i chose a convenient choice of "Live for The Day". Hope one day, i muster the courage to get things that i always wanted.
Meg.
