Even though I came out as trans or a CD earlier this month to my parents, they weren't supportive or accepting about what I told them. My mom found my stash today and a big fight exploded just now. I'm not meeting with a therapist until later in December when I have a day off from work.
My mom things that I am "bored with myself." She thinks sexual identity and gender identity are the same thing. She doesn't get how the brain works. My dad thinks I'm nuts.
I don't know how why I do what I do. All I know is that this is who I am. I've repressed myself for 18 years because I didn't know how or why I had the thoughts that I did. When I put on both a bra and panties on Friday night, I had a feeling that overcame me like never before. It wasn't just the feeling girly part that I loved but the part where I was feeling sexy about myself for the first time in my life. None of my guys clothing were ever able to do that.
My plan to move out of this house is happening a lot sooner than expected. I needed somewhere to vent and other than the few friends that I'm out to, I had nowhere to turn.
