OK, I know I've been a little absent from the conversations for a while but I'm trying to figure things out. Who am I trying to impress? As a 'guy' I always dressed and presented well

"OMG mate, you look like an under cover vice cop, I wanna look like you! Here's two bags of respect mate! 😊 "

As gender fluid though, I can't work out and get 14" forearms and lats like a barn door...and bushy freaking eyebrows...gross!

So who am I trying to impress...

Guys? "OMG mate, you look like a woman, I don't wanna look like that, gimme back those two bags of respect right now mate! 😠

Girls? "OMG, your face totally looks kinda like an undercover vice cop, I don't wanna look like that! 😠 "

Sure, I can go on HRT and even get FFS..or bulk up and turn into Dwayne Jhonson...
but I'm gender fluid and I don't see that changing!...sigh 😐