Wanting it so badly !

[Teresa]

I was walking the dog this morning and caught sight of a young woman from the village walking across a field with a bucket of water to put in the sheep trough. At that moment I wondered how dissimilar were her feelings to mine ? The same wind was tossing our hair, so that would feel the same, my shaved legs would feel the same as hers as we were both wearing jeans, after a while my bra with forms would possibly have the same sensation. If she had arthritis in the same places as me the pain would feel the same and on a day to day working basis what we had between our legs probably wouldn't feel that different . Yet somewhere in that equation is a deep need for some of us that we just can't get out of our minds to be female .

I know I'm going to create some reaction but I know now as a TG that my problem is AGP . Others can and will put their own label on that need in an attempt to explain it. To be seen and accepted as a woman is becoming stronger , in many respects I'm almost there, so many have seen me now that the thoughts of it can never happen have been replaced by at some point it will happen.

To a degree it is confusing , I'm not TS with the feeling of having the wrong body and yet the desire to be seen and accepted as a woman is overwhelming.

Some may recall Marcelle, sadly she no longer comments here , she always said she wasn't TS and yet the overwhelming need to present as a woman eventually lead her to persuading the Canadian Army to accept her as a female major. I hope the fact that she no longer visits the forum means life is going well for her, I sincerely hope so , she had a tough time when she first joined the forum. I always felt close because she was the first one to greet me and since that point I felt we had so much in common , I for one do miss her input.