CDing is the only way I can see myself as beautiful....

I think as a male I'm gross and ugly but as a female I can be truly beautiful...

Is this normal??

I've been having some gender identity issues lately and I just hate being male! But theres nothing i can do about it
i hate my stupid body hair and my stupid male proportions... why couldnt i just have been born female? It's a 50/50 chance... God really blew it...