Originally Posted by
broadshoulderedbroad
i grew up masturbating to the lingerie section of sears catalogs, later to Victoria's Secret catalogs, then to porn that always fetishized lingerie directed by guys like michael ninn and andrew blake. i think gen X, my cohort, was the first "pornified" generation, with the advent if internet porn in the mid '90s.
i have a lingerie fetish, which i definitely attribute, at least in part, to my affinity for watching porn. when i had a girlfriend, i liked to dress them up in lingerie. when i had no girlfriend to put lingerie on, i would dress up myself in lingerie. putting on a garter belt and stockings, sometimes a merriwidow, that was usually enough to satisfy my urge. it wasn't about how i looked, it was about how i felt, sexy.
when i came out to my wife a few months ago about crossdressing, she said my obsession with (buying her) lingerie and sexy swimwear all mase sense to her. crossdressing with her was about how i looked, not just about how i felt. it was about finding looks that brought out the femininity in me, not the vixen. i wanted to look and feel girly, not sultry, and she wanted me to look as pretty as i can be. i started dressing fully, started growing my hair long again, fell in love with makeup artistry, and found myself daydreaming a lot about going out to CD-friendly bars/clubs and events dressed as a woman, or at least a pretty, feminine man.
for me it was the transition from secrecy and shame to openness and pride, even with just my wife and close friends, that made my tastes change.
