For those of us that struggle with gender dysphoria, most of us experience emotional ?ups and downs.? Certain things can trigger me and get me feeling really bad about the male ?role? I play and my male body. Here are just two examples (remember, I am in a DADT marriage with a nonsupportive spouse): 1) When we are in a group social situation and the women separate from the men. The men talk about football, cars, etc. ? things I know little about and have no interest in. I can overhear the women laughing and talking about people, clothes, theater, etc., and I want to be with them. 2) Shaving my face. I hate having facial hair and long for the smooth, feminine skin that most women have and I would only have after electrolysis and hrt. This is especially hard when I shave while my wife stands at the vanity putting on her makeup while I am shaving. The contrasts triggers severe envy. I?ve got many other ?triggers? and I have some ways I soothe them (another thread). How about you? Nancy
