OK, here is an issue I never thought I would have. I have a wife with me 24x7 except for her 45 minute bicycle rides every day.
I do a quick dress up for 1/2 an hour, no makeup, no hair except a brush through or two. I am finding that this amount of activity is not scratching this itch I have to dress.
I find myself dreaming at night about dressing, waking myself up at 2 am. Just lying in bed for hours thinking about makeup, hair and clothes and 3 pairs of new shoes I need to get.
I consider myself a man's man. I do motorcycle trips and I can build stuff and I am looked upon by my wife as the man she loves. She does not want to see me dressed. I asked but it was a flat no.
We do kid around about panties and I ask where she bought those cute polka dot pair. Polka dot clothes is good luck during new years we were told. I do not want to miss out on good luck.
The question is, and I am getting concerned here. Are my urges more than CD? I do want to go out in public dressed but I have not done it yet. I want to improve my look first.
Am I really TG and been lying to myself all these years? By keeping it buried and this emergency thing going on has me stressed out and this is how I am dealing with it?
Natalie
