You would think, at my age, that I would not need to resort to peer pressure to do something I have always wanted to do, but let fear get in the way.
Within the last few months, a French sister on this site chronicled her preparations for a first shopping outing, and took some pics along the way during her time out. I'm following her example, and letting the forum know that tomorrow, I will go shopping en femme at a Kohls which is about forty minutes away. The phone app says that Tuesday mornings don't have too many people in the store.
I've been out walking in the day, done the gas station and ATM thing, and been to a meeting in Chicago with some wonderful girls like us. But the prospect of walking into a building as a woman, with all the trepidations the inevitable encounters will bring, has always daunted me. For many of you, this post is already ho hum. Just reading Teresa's three days out post that is going on now makes my effort pale. But, hopefully, this is a bucket list item checked off that will allow me to move forward to be out as a woman more frequently.
Before you say it ... I'll do my best to own it, to be confident, to smile, and enjoy it. I'll have a quick change to guy clothes with me.
I've attached two photos of the very, very simple outfit I'll have on, thinking blend. No make up or hip pads in these photos ... these were trials this afternoon to be absolutely certain it all came together. I'll do it all up in the morning. I wish my corseted waist could be more on display, but this time its about getting through this. Here in WI, the female uniform of the day is still a black quilted coat, and boots because of the cold weather. I'll fit in clothes wise.
I don't have the voice yet, although I've been at it for a while. I won't try to use it. My biggest worries are my gait (wife has been helping, but apparently I drift towards walking in an effeminine manner, not a feminine one ... hard to explain), and my wig getting blown out in the wind which is always prevalent here.
I know I have your support, and with this post its going to be hard not going through with it.
So there we go .. its in the air now.
The crossdressing community is one that needs to stick together and continue to be there for each other for whatever one needs. We are always trying to improve the forum to better serve the crossdresser in all of us.
