Have you gotten past the fear?

[Jean 103]

I went to the trans support, group that I'm part of last week. They meet once a week , they just started in person meetings again.

I haven't been in 3 to 4 years. It was a very small group only four others besides me. When I used to go the group , there would be anywhere from 10 to 15 people.

These two things weren't really part of the discussion they were just two things I took away from the overall comments that they made.

The one thing was, they expressed feelings of fear. Now everybody has legitimate fears. And then there's the fears when you're like first going out, about acceptance. This is the fear I'm referring to. I would have thought they were past this.

The other thing was they were like lamenting that they would like to dress up and go out, more.

I basically have no fear, I always wear a dress. I rarely wear anything else.

I go out a couple nights a week on average. On the weekends I'll be running around doing all the normal stuff you do.

I'm typically in a dress with full makeup. I never leave the house without looking my best.

I have lots of friends, mostly GGs . Like my best friend. I have a few gay friends. But I don't hangout with any trans people. I live in a small town, there are no gay bars, there's four dive bars , I can go to any of them.

I have been living openly as Jean for years now. I stand out, I do not try to blend or hide.

This guy who's new to town,* he's here temporarily for work. He made the comment to me, "every time I see you, you're in a different dress. I wish my wife would wear a dress once in awhile."

I've also received a comment a few years ago from one of my friends, she's at least 15 years younger than me.* I was wearing ,* palazzo pants and* a blouse. She told me to never wear that outfit again ,* burn it. She said it made me look old. My roommate at the time who was like 10 years older than me, she liked the outfit.

So here's my question.

Have you gotten past the fear of being outdressed in public, worrying about the acceptance of others?

Secondly, when you go out dressed,* do you feel your putting your best foot forward?


Full disclosure
I do work in guy mode. Everything I wear is women's except for the oversized company t-shirt, and I pull my hair back in a ponytail.*

I have a very hard rule that I only do my girly guy mode for work.

The same roommate asked me why I always wear a dress. I told her, it was because I wear skinny jeans to work , so I consider them work clothes.*