Hello sisters.
[This post is somewhat maudlin and kinda ��. Please disregard the 2nd section if you are not inclined]
Been a while...thought I might share an update:
��....a while ago, I found a lovely CD+ blog/website that I have recently rejoined.
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��...I am walking around with my wife and daughter whilst doing the usual Saturday grocery run...full drab with only grey panties on, when a sort-of sad realization came to me. I was pondering the "why do enjoy CD'ing" question, when I started to put 2 and 2 together.
I really enjoy performing on stage...how when you play a role, the "real" you is masked, and you can be that role for a while.
That's when it hit me....I enjoy exploring my femme self because....well...because I don't enjoy being...me.
The life I have forged as Jeff has had up's and down's, but when I sit down and let myself think about it, I cannot tell you what makes me happy...or what satisfactions are in myife...or even what I am ... or what I want...or what I would like to have or do...
(Yes, I know that thinking like that is my Depression rearing its ugly head. No worries, I am aware of it. I know that my A.D.D. brain will eventually forget this feeling and replace it with the usual white-noise static/cloud.)
<shrug>
TTFN, girls.
Take care of yourselves.
XXOO��❤
Jenny
