I love being a dude. But, in sixty-eight years of being a dude, there's never been any feelings of being anything special as a dude. I've always been average in just about every measure, height, shoe size, endowment, anything. As my wife and I went into the empty nesting phase there was a major crisis that appeared in our marriage. As that crisis began to fade my need to express femininity appeared. And, once it appeared it stayed. Since I'm straight, there's nothing about men's wear that gives any sense of being special. Now, women's wear and fashion, that's something that is special. When I wear those things i feel the same sense of being special that seeing my wife dressed up gives me for her.
My wife has never been one to give any kind of compliment for how I looked or dressed. I met the minimum standard but, other than that, nothing... Since she didn't really notice how I looked in drab, why would I desire more of the same. I've come to the point of needing to feel something other than "minimum standard". Even if my wife nor anyone else sees how I dress as special, I feel it. That's why I dress...
