My wife asked me a interesting question last night. I was fully dressed and we were having dinner and she asked me just a curiosity question. She asked me if God forbid something should happen to her or for whatever reason we should separate and I should get into another relationship, how would I go about it with my situation? She reminded me when I told her I was only into pantyhose and slips and that once I achieved satisfaction I couldn't rip off the pantyhose fast enough and almost be disgusted in myself. But I've changed now, its so much more, I'm in deeper now but I'm also older and wiser instead of young and naive when I told her. When I told my wife it was very early in our marriage, I'm still surprised she didn't leave me then. But her main objective was she always viewing it from the sidelines and wanted to see where it was going. She asked me if I would tell the person right away and hopefully this new person can keep a secret because she knows I don't want it out, or would I wait or not mention it at all and live with it in secret. She told me since the children temporary moved out I've been wearing pantyhose everyday, and have fully dressed at least three to four times a week to just relax. She said she sees how I look myself in the mirror when I'm dressed with happiness and a little grin of satisfaction and no more just pantyhose and slips, its now all or nothing. How do I feel about loosing this dressing almost whenever I want for now and taking a big step back deeper in the closet and living without it, that she believes would be hard on me now. She then put her elbows on the table and hands on her face and looked straight at me and ask me again "what would you do?.
I think I felt my heart beating faster and I told her I probably won't be interested at my age to get into another relationship and if somebody did come along I really never thought about it and I guess I would just wing it and see where it goes.
Im just wondering if anyone here did divorce and meet another person did you go about your situation differently then the first time or looking back would you have did something differently back then even with your situation now. I'm not going to lie I try not to think much about the future because things alway change specially at my age but to think about starting over I believe would be exhausting.