Transition and personality...

[pocoyo]

Are you worried that if you transition you would change as a person?
I mean, hopefully the only change would be that you would become complete, but do you wonder if you may lose part of yourself or change (personality wise)?

My mum seems to think I would "become another person". I worry that to some degree she could be right. But hopefully it would be in a good way, like... enriched.. so still me, and with some more new bits (like, actually, we all become as we learn in life). And 'cos I'd feel more relaxed I'd probably still be "me"... but happier and freer or something.

I also worry about the effect T would have on me personality-wise. Again probably it would just be positive things. But I do like how I think and feel (aside from the anxiety crap) and I don't want to be drastically altered (lol not saying I would, just saying it's a concern).
I have read reports of some FtM's feeling like "a fog has lifted" when they went on T... I do actually think I might feel like that, but I don't want to be something I wouldn't naturally be... like, have a slightly artificial personality if that makes sense. (On the other hand, perhaps I am slightly "artificial" now, because of the amount of female hormones I currently have).

Also I get very angry sometimes and I worry that T could impact negatively on that... but to be honest I think if I was producing less female hormones I'd actually feel more chilled out and just be my chilled out self.
I have read that T can make people depressed... that worries me too. (Obviously in other cases it has the opposite effect soo... )